Tomorrow is a new, start a fresh beginning, a time to make the changes in my life that I need to make.  My mom hates the word resolution, she says that it is a set up for failure, so I will use the word goals!  I always have many goals for the new year.  For the past 5 years my main goal has been to get healthy, and this will be the last year for that goal.  When I write this post at this time next year it will be to stay healthy.


So goal 1- Get Healthy!  I have said that my main problem is the way I eat.  I exercise many times a week, but my weight isn't dropping.  It's my food addiction that is my main problem as of right now.  Much to my delight my gym is going to start hosting Weight Watchers on Sat. mornings!  I am extremely excited about this because I trust WW and the plan that they use.  After I had Scott I got down to a size 8 using WW and a at home fitness video.  So I have a personal reason to trust them!  And a bonus is that my gym offers child care, so no more worry as to who will watch them as I go to meetings!  I can just pack us up and go. After I'm done I can go get my work out on!


Goal 2-Think Positive!  This is such a down fall of mine.  I'm always criticizing myself!  I never feel good enough, never pretty enough, never a good enough mom or wife.  It's time that I start liking myself for who I am and to stop thinking so harshly about myself.  My children are going to learn how to criterion themselves if I don't stop.  So this year I will watch my words more carefully and try to retrain my thoughts.  And if I don't like something about myself then I will recognize it and try to change it instead of beating myself up on a daily basis.


Goal 3- Eat Cleaner!  This year I want to try a few new things with our diets.  Most of you know that my oldest has ADHD and all signs point to that my other two may have it also.  Our diet is one thing that I have absolute control over so this year I want to make fresher meals and snacks for all of us.  I want to have a garden and shop more at the farmers markets!  I want to try and incorporate more veggies into our diets then what we currently have!  This will be a huge challenge with Scott Cochran living in my house!  I want them to grow up knowing how to eat right.  Treats like cake and ice cream are fine but that's what they are "treats", not everyday snacks!  


Those are my three basic goals for this year...at least the beginning of the year as I am sure that I will add more as I go through the year!  I do have a time line of when I to achieve a few things, so if you're not too bored yet look below!


Feb 1st-be below 200, I'm currently at 214
March 1st-190 and start working towards my Personal Trainers Cert.
May 1st- 175 and schedule for our family to have professorial pictures taken
Aug 1-155 here is where I will reevaluate and decide if this is where I want to stay or loose down to 145.  If I  loose to 145 then I will reevaluate at that point again.  My goal is healthy and fit NOT bones and skin!
FYI- from now till Aug is 30 weeks, that puts me at 1.9lbs per week to get to my goal by then!


So there you have it!  I'm looking forward not backwards!  I hope that you all have a great new years!

I thought I would give an update since my 30th birthday is just 2 days away!  As in my last post I would love to say that I reached my goal this year, but I haven't.  I'm still down 20lbs from where I started so that it is a plus that at 30 I will have 20 less lbs to loose then at 29.  I have learned a lot through this past year and I'm still trying to figure out some things about my body and the way I personally loose weight.  At my weight I should be able to eat about 1700 calories a day and loose weight, however I seem to only be able to eat 1200 calories to loose weight.  I'm not sure the reason for this, maybe it's just the way my body works!  
Instead of focusing on the negative I thought I would give you some positives about this past year, and some things I learned.


1. Most obviously is that I am still down 20lbs and have maintained that for some time now.
2. I'm more comfortable in the gym and I really know what I'm doing (my eating is what I have to                  figure out) and how to get the most out of my workout.
3. I'm many inches smaller.  I wish I had measured those inches in the beginning, but I didn't so I don't know the exact number. Plus I'm down 2 pants sizes.
4. I've toned my arms quite a bit, and that I am proud of.
5.  I can lift more then some of the boys at the gym.
6.  I'm running sprints...despite my shin splints.
7.  I have found that I love going to the gym with Josh!
8.  I have more confidence.


I'm sure when I'm done writing this I will think of more things that I could have added to my list.  Now on to my goals for this next year in my life.  My main goal of course is to get back on track and finally get the rest of this weight off.  One thing that is becoming a really be drive for me is that I want to be a personal trainer and to do that I want to be in the best shape possible.  Another goal of mine is to start running some races.  like everyone else I'm sure I'll start out in some 5Ks and move to harder ones from there.  I'm also going to schedule a Dr. appointment to get some blood work done so maybe I can get some answers as to why I have to eat  fewer calories then what is recommended to loose weight. 


So there is my update!  I hope that you will join me in the fight to get healthy this year!