The beginning

So today was it, the moment of truth, the day of reckoning, the day I come to terms with my weight and what I have done to my body. At 5:48p.m. I walked into Weight Watchers and weighed.  I haven't weighed in for almost a year.  I know that WW is the plan for me and I know that I can loose weight on it, because I have done it before.  So I take my cute little black shoes off (who wants those extra ounces?) and step onto the scale and there it is 230.06 lbs!  I can't believe it, how did I let this happen?  I know that I have been miserable in my own body for some time now, but 230lbs miserable?  So I walk out and go to eat my last meal where points don't matter and I'm already looking for things that I can eat that won't hurt my plan.  I want to make a true change this time, one that will stick with me, one that will make my life happier, healthier, and easier!  I want to really feel better about myself.  I'm tired of being in a crowd and not feeling worthy because of how I look.  I'm tired of walking my my husband and feeling ashamed for him that he has "this" as a wife.  I'm tired of going to stores and thinking "someday I will wear this".  That "someday" has extended over three years and I'm DONE!  By December 15th, 2011 I will be able to say that "someday" has turned into "now"!  So here I am with my little WW book, points tracker and gym membership trying to devise my plan.  Each Thursday night I will post my weight, and I will have a new goal for my next week.  My goal will not always be a number on the scale, I have more to accomplish than just a number. I will also  I will try to post a new picture every 10 or so pounds so that my progress can be seen.  So here is my weight for Nov 04, 2010 is 230.06 lb. and my goal is positive thinking.  I have spent to many years hating myself and taking every opportunity to cut my self down whether to my self or out loud.  So far today I haven't said one hateful word about myself, I have thought them but I have quickly tried to change my negative thinking into positive thinking.  I'm sure my husband will be happy about this goal , because he truly can't stand how negative I am about myself.   So here it is my weight loss journey has begun, and this time I will succeed!

Amy